What fills you with good feeling?

Recently re-reading my November 2021 journal.  I was wrestling with the idea of how important is your general "stance" towards the world: are you in a football stance, ready to fight back against adversaries? are you in a track stance, ready to sprint, compete? are you in fetal position? are you in forest bather stance?  How do you "move through the world"?

I wrote: "if you're annoyed by red lights... that shows your attitude."

Those seem like fruitful ideas.  Hidden among them is a little question to myself: 

what fills you with good feeling?

I made a list in answer: 

savor, help, make, celebrate, care, curious

Looking back now, it seems like an elemental question.  What are the moment-by-moment things that I do that sustains me?  I'm not sure if that list of 6 is the definitive answer.  But the question seems valuable.  It could be a self-check while I'm planning my day or going through my day... am I doing one of these things?  Can I adjust the next hour/ few minutes so that I can fill myself/feed myself with some of these things?  Can I reframe my next activity (let's say "making dinner") into one of these?  Can I savor the smells? Think about how I'm caring for Jennie in making dinner?

I realize that the list isn't 100% accurate.  Shoving OREOs in my face also "fills me with good feelings."  

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This was a productive time for me -- I was working on landscaping/hardscaping, reviewing the year 2021 in my journals, building/connecting ideas to complete some year-end project/s.

And then Thanksgiving happened -- I see Charlotte on Find My Friends going to Peoria, returning from Peoria on Thanksgiving morning.  Phil nor Kim nor anyone says anything about it.

I'm noting this now because it slammed the door on the good, productive thinking.  The episode felt like an elaborate betrayal.  Which was, if nothing else, distractingn and consuming.